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This is the opinion of one person.

Big tism Unsurprisingly, autism.

Here's some advice from our experience over the last 9ish years of being in therapy. 1.

I deeply agree with this statement, that you become whoever would have saved a younger version of yourself.

We've always liked physical things.

Tldr: we go by Terra now.

I've always felt like I wasn't enough.

Brain go zoom.

This is my combat robot, Inertial.

This is the 1st post in a series about my favorite media Movies!

This is the 5th post in a series about trans experiences (previous) A transition in mirror photos Staring at a mirror of myself Your browser does not support the video tag.

Lily (she/her) Hihi, I figured a good way to introduce some of our headmates in more detail would be to share some of their favorite music, since most headmates have pretty distinct tastes and favorite songs.

"Anything less than your everything is not good enough" Is a lesson that's unfortunately very deeply engrained into my head.

I don't really regret things.

For a long time I've felt like I haven't had a proper home.

This is the 2nd post in a series about the book/movie Project Hail Mary (previous) Have you seen Project Hail Mary yet?

This post is written by the Terra system as a whole, when plural pronouns (we/us) are used, they're referring to our system, not to you the reader or anyone else The primary authors of this post are Lily, Hollow, and Knight.

Death by a thousand cuts.

I've had to come to terms with two facts in the last few years.

There's a comedian I watched during residential that was someone talking about depression and meds and such.

This is the 1st post in a series about the book/movie Project Hail Mary (next) Have you seen Project Hail Mary yet?

"This is my debut song.

Repetition legitimizes.

“I am overwhelmed with things I ought to have written about and never found the proper words.” ― Virginia Woolf, The Diary of Virginia Woolf, Volume One: 1915-1919 I think about this quote a lot.

This is a 4am blog post.

During one of the first times I experienced hypomania for real, past me decided to write it down.

This is the 4th post in a series about trans experiences (previous/next) Misgendering - Lily Mistakes happen, yet In their careless words Splitting pain fills my being Going down a deep dark path Entering into that painful place Neverending darkness Denied

This is the 3rd post in a series about trans experiences (previous/next) and the 1st in a series about my trauma This is a heavy post.

This is the 2nd post in a series about trans experiences (previous/next) Transfeminine trauma is extremely difficult, yet every trans woman I've talked to holds onto some amount of it.

This is the 1st post in a series about trans experiences (next) I have always been a trans woman I didn't grow up as a boy, as a man, or whatever society likes to label trans women as.

This blog post spun off of this blog post.

Hi, Skye here!

A peer from residential said this and it really stuck with me: "I'm going to feel worse if I do that, so I won't" It was so simple yet so powerful, just don't do it if it's going to make yourself feel worse.

The Brain Zoo - exurb1a Thoughts This was my introduction to the ideas of meditation and mindfulness.

Don't hesitate - Mary Oliver If you suddenly and unexpectedly feel joy, don’t hesitate.

Comparison is the thief of joy I wanted to write about my experiences of comparison.

You should read my OCD post before this one.

Mumford & Sons - The Cave Thoughts But I will hold on hope And I won't let you choke On the noose around your neck And I'll find strength in pain And I will change my ways I'll know my name as it's called again I really like this song, it captures some i…

For a long time, I felt that to love someone was to worry about it.

This is a blog post about a comic posted by an artist I really like.

During a meeting, two of the topics were surrender and giving up control to your Higher Power.

This is part 1 of a series of posts about my depression and addictive experiences.

Agnostic For most of my life I've identified as agnostic.

A peer at my residential program said: "when you have OCD, all your thoughts become hostile" and that rang so true for me.

tldr Autumn Hills (abbreviated as AH from now on) is a very good program and one that I would recommend to anyone needing a residential program Pros Large clean houses Huge staff to client ratio (At least 1:1 at all times, usually more than that) 6 clients

Summary Residential care is extremely extremely extremely valuable for those who need it.

Part 3 in a series about our plurality.

See this post for context.

For me, Lily, plurality is the experience of having different personalities, personas, and people within a single mind.

core concepts treetops are a sea land is scarce and valuable plant growth is rampant open flames are forbidden crezzerin corrupts on contact economy is barter based its a weird weird world arconautics (unknown and uncanny, whispers, spirits) important ter…