Autistic As Fxxk

Content Warning: lots of ableism (both systemic and internalised) These are just some snapshots of my life growing up in a society with a poor understanding of neurodivergence (particularly during the 90s), with no access to the support I truly needed.

This is probably the kind of post I should’ve done at the beginning of the year or end of last year, but if you’ve read some of my recent posts, you’ll know I haven’t been in the right headspace since late last year.

Content Warning: childhood trauma, domestic abuse, gaslighting After much self-reflection, I think I figured out what specifically traumatised me about my grandparents, to the point I became mute around them and started speaking in a soft whisper to every…

2026 has been really overwhelming for me so far.

Every now and then, whenever I share my experiences with selective mutism online, I’d get DMs on Instagram like “Just a gentle reminder that ‘situational mutism’ is the preferred term in our community.”

Content Warning: childhood trauma I was diagnosed with selective mutism at the age of four.

For a long time, whenever I was failed by a system in supporting my needs, I internalised it as proof that something was wrong with me.

Since starting Autistic As Fxxk, I’ve received messages from younger Autistic Singaporeans saying they look up to me and see me as a role model.

For a very long time after getting my autism diagnosis at age 20, I assumed I had low support needs.

Content Warning: childhood trauma, domestic abuse, sexual misconduct In a previous post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, I wrote: I used to love singing at a very young age.

Content Warning: childhood trauma, bullying As part of my trauma healing journey, I’ve been exploring Internal Family Systems (IFS), mostly through reading the book “Self-Therapy” by Jay Earley.

After sharing about my horrific experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore, I’ve been thinking a lot about what a truly supportive programme would look like.

After writing about the childhood trauma that caused my selective mutism and my horrific experience with a job training programme for Autistic people, I’m left with this deep rage about everything I went through.

Content Warning: ableism, infantilisation, inspiration porn I’ve mentioned a few times before that I had an awful experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore.

I know generative AI is a controversial topic now and I’ll probably get some pushback on this post.

This Autism Acceptance/Awareness Month, please remember our neurokin who lost their lives to systemic racism and ableism.

Content Warning: childhood trauma, religious trauma After sharing my last post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, more memories and realisations have continued to surface.

Content Warning: childhood trauma, domestic abuse Hey everyone, I know I haven’t posted anything new for some time.

Chinese New Year is my most dreaded time of the year as a Chinese Autistic person.

Hey y’all… I know I haven’t written any new post in a while.

Here’s a letter I wrote to try to show myself some self-compassion.

In a previous post, I infodumped about my special interest in Rage Against the Machine.

“Just as intentionally liberating oneself from the culturally ingrained and enforced performance of heteronormativity is sometimes referred to as queering, intentionally liberating oneself from the culturally ingrained and enforced performance of neuronor…

Here are some ableist beliefs I’ve internalised from a very young age.

I was recently interviewed by Autism Dialogues.

This post is inspired by @_elaurian_ on Instagram who created an amazing Rage Against the Machine wellbeing package for me!

Content Warning: ableism, inspiration porn, murder of Autistic children Consuming content about autism in most Singaporean media can be triggering for me.

Content Warning: problematic creators, sexual assault allegations Post by @autisticasfxxk View on Threads So, some fucked up shit came out about your special interest.

Growing up as a young girl who didn’t speak, people tended to make a lot of assumptions about me: that I had no opinions, that I couldn’t understand what was happening around me, that I was just a meek and innocent girl, that I couldn’t hang out with my p…

I’m currently really struggling.

Why stand on a silent platform?

Can you believe it’s been a year since I launched Autistic As Fxxk??

Here’s a new free printable I created: It’s a customisable mini-zine containing these pages: Things I Can’t Leave Home Without My Support System My Comfort Items My Safe Foods Self-Care Reminders Write down your own self-care reminders, tips and affirmati…

In my previous post, I talked about my love for the note-taking app Obsidian and why it’s perfect for my AuDHD brain.

I’m obsessed with taking notes on my phone and computer.

As an isolated and misfit teenager, I was naturally drawn to alternative subcultures like punk and goth.

Ever since I picked up a bass and plucked my very first note, I knew that this was THE instrument for me.

Here are some life hacks I learnt from a young age from my mom, who I highly suspect is an undiagnosed ADHDer: She taught me to set all my clocks 5 minutes fast so that I’m less likely to be late.

I’ve been seeing many posts on Instagram on Autistic support needs, and it got me wondering if the culture/environment you live in could have an impact on your level of support needs.

Here are some awesome free resources I found online that I think would be very useful to Autistics!

There’s no shame in doing things a little differently when you don’t have the energy to do them like you usually do.

Content Warning: mention of suicide It’s just about being true to yourself and knowing what your limits are.

Just wanted to share some practical and no-BS tips that have worked for me.

Going to a new and unfamiliar place can be anxiety-inducing for Autistics.

This is a raw post written while I was in the midst of a mini Autistic burnout.

Shadow work is the process of getting to know the hidden parts of yourself—thoughts, emotions, behaviours and parts of your personality that you’ve repressed because you were taught that they were undesirable or because of trauma.

If you can’t fix it, feature it.

A little post inspired by Keri Smith’s “How to Feel Miserable as an Artist”.

I have a Spotify playlist that I listen to whenever I really need to focus on a task.

My mom always said that I began to sing long before I could talk.