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on about the same girl from the last post. ok so i blocked her. only on whatsapp. so she could find me on instagram if she wanted to. which i understand is me being ridiculous. but i kept obsessively checking my phone to see if maybe, just maybe, she fina…

im really devastated about this girl. her name is phoebe. she texted me november 3 2025. along the lines of "you dont know/remember me, we met at a party in 2021, and i havent stopped thinking about you. ive since moved to europe but i had to get it off my

i wish i kept up with this blog more but im happy to write about the last few weeks. i tend to write about forensics here, which is fitting to begin, i attended an international speech tournament in Athens, Greece with 4 other team members + an graduated…

i didnt realize how unhealthy that friendship was until I ended it. i feel really uncomfortable when people are possessive over me, but I seem to have this terrible habit of letting people feel ownership over me anyway. for some reason. i think because I'm

i forgot to write here the last night of my tournament, but. i did really good.

today was my tournament. i did my prose twice and my POI three times. the first time I did my POI, I completely totally and entirely messed up. but I was able to do really good at pretending I didn't mess up... one of the other speakers said she couldn't…

im at a speech tournament right now. well I'm in my hotel room. i straightened my hair and ironed my clothes last night. packed my bag and bought mary janes this morning. picked up my brother and had lunch with my mom this afternoon. then my girlfriend ca…

im missing my trip down to pasedena today. i went to the beach with A.Y and K.T and it was beautiful. i saw a dolphin, the water was so warm and green and blue and the waves bullied me into the sand and even if it hurt a little, i was having so much fun.…