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dancing comes easier than writing lately. the past six weeks have mostly been love island u.s.a. episodes and then shuffling around in my socks for an hour to the same eight songs. meanwhile, i unlocked my shoulderstand and am this 🤏 close to balancing my…

i have google alerts set up for my high school and its associated creeps. this guy’s name was a jump scare in my email this morning. when i thought i knew him, he was pursuing an arts-related phd and was the smartest, most interesting person i’d ever met.…

i don’t even have it in me to complain at this point, so here are some things making life worth living lately: listers: a glipse into extreme birdwatching, a documentary. reminds me vaguely of my favorite doc, the parking lot movie. / jury duty presents:…

my great love for her – my love for the great her – caught in my throat: i am a mouthless face: morose remorse in a sea of gray: where absence lives. i grieve for us and it feels like wanting. i grieve for us and it feels like denial. who could ever under…

%% this post references eating disorders and weightloss medication. %% i met a friend downtown for coffee yesterday afternoon; a fuzzy caterpillar did slow laps around our table as we talked over the windchimes and the band practicing next door. the world…

i’ve been feeling nostalgic. maybe it’s all the war. also probably that the youngest among us turned eighteen. she’s using her time wisely: watching dolphins at the river with a boy. we got our nails done when i went up to celebrate. she directs me to par…

i came across nick’s "i watch porn" post on the discovery feed last night. i agree with the general premise, that adult content is an important bastion of privacy and censorship rights, and that we have a responsibility to cling to those rights without ca…

been following my own advice – staying active, cleaning the house, trying harder. for the most part / all things considered. i drove almost six hours home on january 1st. the monday i was supposed to go back to work, i woke up with a brutal tooth infectio…

this morning, i went to a dance workshop all about feeling and writhing and being seen. ten of us rolled around on the floor in the dark for ninety minutes with prompts like “imagine yourself as a bag of bones” and “make imperceptible movements”; we ended…

happy new year 🎇🤸🏻‍♀️🥂 2025 review my word of the year was voice. i started my bearblog, republished my notes, reached out to some bloggers and academics i follow, started speaking up more, started saying “no” more, and found what it means to me to be a w…