socioreligious chrysalis

i'm tired of being the "straight girl with terribly low standards for men" of spiritual seekers, y'all. i have a brain wired for catholic scholasticism but the material and social conditions of a neo-pagan witch. i gotta stop trying to hammer this square…

i've thought about trying to turn this space into something like a meditation journal, but so many ways of realizing that idea are in tension with my meditation practice in itself. do i write about what my meditation session was "about", or what thoughts…

here's what the current time slice of the bio-temporal cobordism known as "me" is up to i've had my second episode of disenchantment with christianity!

the gospel of Philip, a vaguely valentinian gnostic apocryphal text, mocks the doctrine of virgin birth: some said Mary conceived by the Holy Spirit. they do not know what they are saying; when did a female ever conceive by a female?

on an average day, i probably spend at least a cumulative hour thinking about convents and nuns, amortized over myriad microdaydreams, a habit of thought triggered by waiting for the train, waking up with my coffee, sitting on the toilet, drifting off to…

god fucking loves that i'm trans people ask if there is any friction between my faith and my trans life. sometimes there's friction with my faith community, at least in an extended sense; my home parish is 1000% chill, but being any flavor of catholic tra…

i really love praying the sorrowful mysteries of the Rosary. if there's any substantive argument for why i can wholeheartedly consider myself catholic despite being in a western christian tradition that rejects the supreme authority of the bishop of rome,…

quick little update on what's up with me lately!

the corners of social reality are shrinking and collapsing, the geometry is clipping through itself, and corner cases like me have to make ourselves smaller. under sustained pressure and temperature, my internal structures denature, simplify, recrystallize

one of my favorite things to do, apparently, is point out when people use the word "faith" incorrectly, at least in a christian context i think a pretty common use of the word is something like "firm belief without evidence or justification", and i'm not…