slogosphere

often i see videos or posts or some other medium of expressing content tackle the 'the curse of self awareness' or something along those lines it always tickles me that people will comment something like 'omg yes, this is me, i am so self aware it's crazy'

why do i always need to be doing something but when i am doing something it's the thing i don't need to do then i get tired from this doing something, but not the thing i want to be doing, then i feel bad about it what gives

this kind of came up today in a discussion between friends i am probably what people would describe as a textbook people pleaser i tax myself too much to try and make things easier for other people, to the point that it frustrates me but i won't compromise

usually i am v performative and that makes me mask what i want to write - or i write what i think people want to hear i am feeling flat at the moment lots of things happening, lots of thoughts - but fast thoughts, not slow thoughts slow thoughts are good,…