the sieve and the sand

the rocks are stacked too neatly to be put there by nature surely some old civilization with incredible technological capability came and used a crane or at least eleven pulleys and wrapped these rocks in some kind of hemp rope (i’m sure it was hemp) and…

you shout and shout your candied carrots at the horses in a field but only god decides when they are thirsty

and I’m 12 again in our old hard-side the water clear and cool on my sunburned skin as I hold my breath with my eyes wide open ignoring the burn of chlorine I try to count to 60 mississippi at least 5 times in a row but by 3 and 30 mississippi the convuls…

it’s not a good day unless i’m crying about how i left my friends behind so they could get murdered because i’m racing the devil like someone asked me to come back for them when i figure it out but i’ll never figure it out then someone else will take speed

oh ignorant sun who still rises though you are gone from me and the stupid earth, too which still spins haven’t they gotten the news?

maybe i’m not doing the world a kindness by keeping my mouth shut i got too offended at it but now i am not hurting, and you are that’s just the way i wanted but it’s a sad way i’ve yet to fully repent i don’t know if i ever will this is tantamount to my…

i remain small but fill out my petty stature after all why should the bugs not follow me?

everyone can tell the fire dyin but no one fixin to chop wood it’s too late to look up them aliens already round the fire momma don’t leave your child here when you get back they’ll be a burnin

i am a monkey who draws pictures on cave walls i want to sit by the fire and talk to my friends i want to pick at berries and save for the winter and commune with the other animals until i return to the loamy soil which all monkeys were born happily

they don’t make sunlight like they used to anymore and i don’t smoke camel wides, either i don’t drive a sports car that catches air on the rail road tracks these days back then when i decided i’d live just to see what happens i never thought i’d find mys…

i struggle not to view the world plainly as daniel did i struggle not to hate everyone ‘s favo-rite song (s) i struggle not to close my eyes and focus only in- ward i struggle not to lash out against the silence at you i struggle not to loosen my grip and…

homunculus, I willed by nothingness only making heads or tails if I eat them SEPTA trolleys Arizona RX Energy automated missile systems trogloditian dreams haunt the sunlight dull my edges entropically

I’ll see you in the gloom, before there is enough light.

Our lives are too full.

the things i want are attainable but perhaps not by me and the timelines i want are theoretical at best i should stop with my whining and get on with my fixing it so shit can get better and i can sleep until then deal i will not cope i won’t but carry on i

to see a single leaf you must first, not see it at all in the black of night then, as the sun comes up you can just barely make out its figure as the immutable light floods your eyes you capture it fully

the pain returns behind my eye the right eye or is it the wrong one?

mostly sure we’re doing it wrong that there is a way to strive less and feel more happy content satisfied with how things are. i’m mostly sure we’re doing this completely fucking wrong but because i cannot extract myself from my culture this time this pla…

love is magic and the only magic is love calms me down when you are near even your voiceless presence driving to buffalo wild wings i crack a joke, you smile at me abakadabra love is magic and the only magic is love tell me your thoughts on dreams on the…

So maybe dreams are anytime and when you laugh at my dumb jokes I am flying through the countryside and your fingers on my chest are a hundred thousand saxophones and you let me wear your magic glasses so I can see infinity in your eyes and my heart won’t…