a corner for us

I've been thinking about how sometimes when your friends tease you, say jokes that could be hurtful in another context, or make you the subject of some contrived situation or question.

i dont know if ive mentioned before how i started choking myself. not the painful kind where you cant breath but the one that can be gentle and kind. its called a blood choke but idk if thats the technical term. you aim for the artery to your brain. theres

today i had some thoughts i wanted to write down. i was reflecting on us. myself as a system. right now there are 3 broadly distinct identities that have slowly solidified more over the past 2ish years at uni. right now feels like one of those clarity mom…

i have this weird definition of what a friend is. at least i feel like ive adapted to calling it weird. i probably give the word more meaning than others so maybe in some ways my definition is better. my friendliness labels go: stranger acquaintance frien…

mood log felt so shitty last night. i went to sleep early (like around 8/8:30) and have somehow been awakeish since 12 (its 7 now) idk why i felt that way. by all accounts it was a good day. uni has started and so we had all the new student events. im exec

i failed. which hurts. that i couldn’t do it. shima left for a few days. it was lonely. it was hard. i wonder if its better to have no options now. nothing i would choose at least. starve. hypothermia. sleep deprivation. car. jump. when i feel so hurt or…

Love has carried me… Since I was 12.

Being on ADHD meds has changed my life.

I wish they had reached out sooner.

i will live. i will tell those who care about me how i feel no matter how hurtful it may be. i will love myself more and try to find those who will return the love i give them. i will do my best to live life my own way. as simple or honest or hard as it m…