unselfconscious

trigger warning: child abuse salah satu alasan aku agak buru-buru menyetel Bearblog hari ini adalah agar aku bisa memindahkan catatan ini ke sini sebelum terpublikasi ke platform sebelumnya (aku punya 24 jam sebelum ini terjadi), sehingga bisa kuhapus dari

aku membuat blog ini karena ingin lebih bebas berekspresi. ada hal-hal yang aku simpan dari teman-teman irl, bahkan teman-teman internet, karena aku mengharapkan mereka jadi teman irl juga suatu saat. di sini, aku tidak akan menyembunyikan itu. sebagai ga…

i hate having to throw food away. food is expensive. i buy food with my almost-nonexistent money. i want to appreciate every bite of it. but i, like most people, also don’t have infinite capacity to consume food. and home-cooked food go bad really fast. w…

apparently this stream is about the things i hate

i hate that even when things are cheap or discounted, i still can’t afford them

i'm so afraid of the future. the near future. i thought i'm at rock bottom. but apparently the rock bottom has a dungeon. i am not okay. things are not looking good. just like how my country's currency is plummeting now, i'm plummeting and i don't know how

my crochet purse is almost finished. i just need to make the strap and i'm still looking for a simple but not ordinary pattern that would not use up too much yarn because i literally only have one bundle left. i think i've found it and it's gonna look like

i thought it would be helpful for myself to start a series of weeknotes, oddly because i'm not doing great right now. i'm currently on therapy for a disorder my therapist and i are still figuring out, and i've been doing so well but then i started to crash