passerine

i’ve just come home from (what is likely) my last-ever vacation with my eldest sister. she isn’t sick or dying, which i am thankful for, of course. but, she is planning to enter seclusion at a convent on the other side of the world instead – something i u…

lately, i have been feeling this sort of chronic, lingering 'overwhelm' (for lack of an actual proper noun to use. maybe “doom” works here too. given the state of the world maybe that is the most appropriate word). it started sometime at the end of march…

the only nice weekly spread from my planner i would never consider myself type a, but i love my planner. i started using physical planners in 2018 or so when i first started college and have somehow kept the habit to this day, though with varying degrees…

mtg year of the horse 2026 plains art there is no value in romanticizing a life that does not move and cannot move. every light left on, speck of dust, wrinkle, and drip stain is accounted for. even when she’s not here, the camera she set up to watch our…

how do you get to know someone who’s already gone?

i feel that for the past 6 months i've been in limbo, reframing my view of my world (over and over). i get it. i get me. and then i don't. i'm always grasping at straws trying to understand this dread stuck in the pit of my stomach. i feel it eating at me,

a couple months before he passed, we bought a hospital bed for my dad. he hated because it gave him nightmares, but he couldn’t breathe well if he wasn’t propped up. to this day, i wonder what he dreamed of and i wonder why i had never asked.1 i’ve always…

it was hard to write anything at all on the cruise ship last may. i'd spend so much of the day walking that by night time my feet were fast asleep before i was. i also generally found that there was so little for me to say. i could only describe X, Y, and…

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warning: contains spoilers for gennarose nethercott's thislefoot & a lot of meandering!