nyaforg's abode

life turns to dust, grey to mush. soul goes where else, sallowed self. turn in for bed, 'scape my dread. self springs life, ever bright. newfound sprite, gotten light. soul can't choose, strings so loose. comfort not, sorrily paup. stare in fear, oh quive…

on friday my throat started to feel that way it does before i get a cold or a flu. fortunately i had the next two days off so i could fight it and get back to work. my attendance has been an issue, every morning im like an old car that you have to kick, c…

i find myself in a darkness like what becomes of one's vision once a thousand meters below the surface of an ocean. conscious that yes, light exists if i travel up; that yes, it's a long way to go. it'll require strength i'm not sure i presently possess.…

there's something that gets glossed over or not said about deprogramming after being in a cult and maybe its not so much a cult thing as it is a my particular experience thing. in any way, some combination of my step mother's psychological abuse and the b…

the disabling reality of depression is one that's uncomfortable, embarrassing and humiliating. sure, we've made progress over the years; when we apply to jobs, we can disclose depression or other mental illnesses as a disability to our employer but in oth…

its been two, maybe three years since i was last in therapy. in that time, i was stalked by a creep across two jobs, then my best friend, izziah died. when izziah passed, i knew i definitely needed therapy and soon, it was just that insurance was up in the

It's been a little while since i wrote anything here.

C O N T E N T W A R N I N G Sexual Assault , Violence , Death Threats please read at your own discretion.

theres gonna be an update to xfce soon and im like so hecking excited about it >< usually i'd say im probably too excited about it but this is my blog so its froggy rules over here :3 for those not in the know, xfce is a desktop environment for gnu/linux…

a soft sunrise, quietly peeking through trees. smoke carefully billowing through a chimney, its hearth stretching throughout a home; like a blanket, so carefully. one by one, as the families wake. a crescent of sight, with beauty and light; outside, and a…