trying not to be a prick

today was one of the longest days of your lives. you were right that you slept like a baby last night, and you woke refreshed for the first time in a year. you organized mass in your village, the parishioners gave you a farewell as you'd be leaving in two…

you pulled out your old smartwatch last week. the cool, hackable smartwatch which you hadn't used in ages. you thought the battery had gone, but you'd just had too many background processes programmed. anyway, it's running now, and you're more organized t…

you're writing this early in the morning, because it will be a day full of people. not your people, just people. starting with helping some community members, then customer service all day, then a staff lunch, then an event. you will not have time for you…

when you both came home from a long day of adventures, masha used to say 'and tired and happy, they came home'. you think it might've been her translating from the russian version of winnie the pooh. very meta. in any case, she said it nearly every evening

you're trying to build a habit of writing every day - trying to combat the adhd - trying to find yourself in the void. for now, you're writing freely - few edits, few themes - few thoughts. yet, on just day 2, you see that time is the ultimate force in yo…

you were on the phone this evening when you noticed your cat acting unusual in the bedroom. normally she'd be hiding under the bed after being outside, but she was zooming here and there. five minutes in, you saw - she had brought in a zebra finch. the ti…

you went for a run today in the big city - on one of the first routes you made when you first returned to australia ten years ago. you struggled, and what's more it was the first time your heart skipped while running. while you came to perth suddenly for a

all your adult life, you've had an image stuck in your head of you walking out that front door, with nothing but a small backpack, not knowing where you're going, but knowing you'll be fine for the first time in your life. the last few days, since you sta…

you were in bed one night, in the softness that comes at the beginning of a relationship. she ran her fingers over your body and murmured in english, 'you're dense.' rather than get defensive as a native speaker and assume the worst, you hesitated. a preg…

you lost your intimacy with masha. you started having imaginary conversations in your head with george. you gave up with odko.

for years you've had dreams where people push you around, take advantage of you. you take it or, rather, you just sort of - go with it. last night/this morning was particularly brutal. there were two or three instances of persons just taking pieces out of…