Thoughts and bits

i've been doing some light voice training, and i noticed something.pitch an absolute measurement, but for each person there's a range of "low" and "high" that i can hear through their vocal effort/strain. a deep voice on a cis woman in absolute pitch is at

in late 2016, i tried on my girlfriend's bra and put my shirt over it on a lark, and then felt a strange, intense, incredibly scary sensation that i ran away from for almost 10 years.

i've begun estrogen.

last month was my 39th birthday. i did't feel any particular urge to celebrate it, so instead i want to celebrate my wife.dear wife, you have been the greatest partner, parent, lover, co-conspirator, adventurer, and cook. i am blessed beyond belief that y…

i got 1/5 of the way through in the event of love and then it was time to return it to the library and i felt no urge to check it out again. this kind of story is great for a movie that only requires 2 hours max, but drawn out in a novel, it's much harder…

turns out, i am trans, a late-in-life lady.what happened?

after commissioning a bunch of sapphic art in may, i was feeling intense gender feelings while sitting in the san fransisco airport, waiting to board the plane home from my cousin's wedding. i'd read all of "bury your gays" by chuck tingle on the flight o…

my 39th birthday is day after tomorrow. instead of a midlife crisis, i'm having Gender Feelings and will be changing my pronouns to they/he (they/them preference, he/him in a pinch).thanks in advance.

there's "male socialization" discourse on bluesky, and it has been making me reevaluate my life and my experiences of malehood. i've wondered about that idea before, didn't come up with a satisfying answer so i let it be. but after reading lots of posts,…

Sometimes, the prose felt inspired, marvelous and deft, and I luxuriated in it.

I have commissioned an erotic piece of art.

ImportantEDIT: I WROTE ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT AND FORGOT TO CREDIT THE AUTHOR OF MY JAVASCRIPT CODE!

For the last year, I've been driving a 2025 Toyota Sienna, a boat of a minivan.

Every 2 years I enter a state of frenzy, where I become obsessed with the Olympics.

saw credits in 25 hours.i finished god of war and it was fine. a perfectly reasonable use of time but nothing inspiring or compelling, tbh.

Vacations are hard.

cohost made it very easy to post. bluesky makes it easy to post but posting there sucks. even tho cohost was public, it gave a wonderful illusion of being out of sight (if not actually private) which enabled more freeing posting. the nicer post editor hel…

spoiler warning for the ending of jedi survivor.i finished the game and thought the ending sucked ass. i wrote a bunch to some friends and have adapted it to a longer rant here.

I began to update the Now page and realized that because it's ephemeral, I should put all of my transient thoughts in a post first.

NoahTheDuke BACKERreviewed Star Wars OutlawsCompletedonPlayStation 5 The greatest Star Wars game ever made.The way the "open world" is built in Star Wars Outlaws lends itself to a style of storytelling that is both supported by the game and open for player

NoahTheDuke BACKERreviewed Blue PrinceCompletedonPlayStation 5 A really pleasant way to spend time with my wife.

I have some plans for the new year that I'd like to put to paper as a small measure of accountability and internal pressure to follow through.

NoahTheDuke BACKERreviewed Super Mario Bros.

Every so often I decide to get a latte from a coffee shop instead of black coffee (pour over preferably).

I'm trying out Working Copy on ios to post from mobile.

Conspiracy theory: Parks and Rec was a psyop to make people hate Hillary Clinton-era liberals.Yes, my wife is rewatching Parks and Rec, why do you ask?

my wife is preggers again and we're back on that grindset, trying to find a "boy" name(i know, don't at me lol).if you had to name a kid born with a penis, what would you choose?

My current blog system uses Cryogen and compiled all markdown into html when I ran it locally.

NoteI wrote this hours before the website https://cohost.org closed.i have never blogged so much, made so many dumb jokes, or engaged so fervently and honestly. i've made some friends, learned some things, and found that it feels good to share without hav…

i'm still playing blasphemous, trying to finish it, and it's a grind in part because there's no quest markers or log or anything. i don't remember characters, i don't know what i'm supposed to be doing, i'm just going around trying to unlock new portions…

but it feels incredible to play. movement is precise, dodging and blocking feel good, the art is some of the best, the music is haunting. i remember enjoying it but i don't remember enjoying it this much.

i'm up to 19 hours in a week and I won't stop until i've liberated the whole galaxy. i am bursting with enthusiasm about it but idk how to write about it without falling into cliche. the available tools allow for unparalleled artistry when executing a plan

4 year old, interrupting my bed time song: cows are made of meat. are humans made of meat?

NoahTheDukereviewed Elden RingShelvedRetired at 75 hours I might have put this at 4.5, but I took a full star off for every 15 hours past where this game was worth continuing to play.

I've written a converter to translate a selected number of my posts from the now-defunct blogging platform and social media website https://cohost.org.

Big feature: Safety and AutocorrectionEvery rule has been marked as safe or unsafe.

https://clojure.org/news/2024/09/05/clojure-1-12-0I'm excited as hell for this one.

Started playing Jedi Survivor after burning out on Elden Ring again.This game is a blast.

NoahTheDukereviewed Uncharted 2: Among Thieves RemasteredCompletedonPlayStation 4 A perfectly fine way to spend some evenings.

me when i have a job: i think i'm just naturally happy. i don't get sad often or for long periods and i easily roll with the punches of day to day life.me when i don't have a job: maybe i should kill myself.

On twitter, someone asked: "But seriously, what changes would you make to OCaml which would worth it to break backward compatibility?"

after drink the sea (nearly perfect), i went in with such high hopes and yet even 10 years later, love death immortality just fucking sucks dude. not a single good song, almost none of the things that made me love drink the sea, just a complete abdication…

The --only cli flag is one I've been meaning to implement for a while but just hadn't gotten around to.

I know it's not the style, but I like to think of Ocaml like a Clojure that has more syntax, and just wrap everything in parentheses.

I played and beat Lacuna this week.

i dropped my iphone nearly a week ago, busted the screen just enough that it no longer registers touches. so i swapped the sim into a flip phone and have been living an offline life.lemme tell you what, it's a pretty sick life. i'm slowly losing the sense…

(I wrote the below in a comment on the original post)I work in enterprise and hobby Clojure, so I have some experience with this question.This is probably the primary issue with Clojure at scale.

watched the final season after taking a year off. what a good fuckin show.i loved every happy ending, tbh. felt perfectly inline with the show for everyone to live happily ever after.this is the best show matt groening has ever done, by far.

idk how to write it. i'm not a poet, i was raised by a writer but words don't come easily to me so when i feel these feelings, all i come up with is stuff like "she's so fucking hot" which is true but also shallow.it's like...every texture of her body is…