between dirt and sea

perhaps the first of who knows how many- (1/?)

monday, 20260330 to sunday, 20260405 ridgewood, ny fifth weeknotes. being written late (20260410) but as always better late than never this week was a bit of a blur in my mind. writing this toward the end of my third week at new job. and thinking about the

monday, 20260323 to sunday, 20260329 ridgewood, ny fourth weeknotes we keep on going. really didn't want to sit down and write this before leaving for work but i'm going to give it minimum effort and see what spins out. a lot of working this week. first w…

is after you've finished one job and are waiting to start another. nothing matters in this period. anything could happen. the structure enforced upon your life by your work has been lifted and now structureless you can do anything. mine was pretty normal.…

monday, 20260316 to sunday, 20260322 ridgewood, ny third weeknotes !!

monday, 20260309 to sunday, 20260315 ridgewood, ny second weeknotes. and i'm writing them on the following wednesday the 18th instead of sunday like i was intending. but that is ok. always late is better than never. in general another rollercoaster of a w…

so i saw myself on my phone screen. i was filming myself skate. and i felt that jolt that i've felt many times. from seeing myself and feeling disconnected from that person. from feeling different in my body compared to what i see. and i thought that it w…

most of my life I've felt this cloud following me around. an unknowable cloud full of the stuff i've forgotten. urgent or otherwise. could be an appointment, or an idea i had this morning, or brushing my teeth, or picking up onions on my way home from wor…

what goes down your drain?

there are objects in your life. sometimes they give friction. sometimes your small voice speaks up. you know what they need. so change them. rip off the bandaid of sanctity which a product brings home from the factory and change it!