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it's been a while and I'm remembering I would like to document my life (for my own already-shoddy memory's sake) and for just venting and for connection, maybe, even to a future self... sometimes I go back to these streams of consciousness and I am overwh…

if I keep waiting for life to happen to me, it will remain stagnant, a pool fogged up with sulfurous algae. no, nothing is fair. yes, the evil prevails. love is a room that appears when you step into it. my god, I just remembered that we die.

Wow, Fall did hit me like a truck this year. apologies for the despair in my last post!

it is completely hilarious (not funny at all actually) what happens to a person's brain when they are sick for days on end, coming off of being strung out because of a work project, no social interaction for days, and trying to find a job in a completely…

what do you do when you know the world is ending?

if loving is not possession as many think, then maybe it is being seen, recognized, regardless of how transfigured. being known deep in your soul, seen for your flaws and broken promises and stories you tell yourself, things that you do to hold yourself b…

25 now and presents come to me as new albums, grateful. want you to know that despite everything and the ugly feelings, I'm still rooting for you to make it, even if I can't be there for it. this is one year where I'm not entirely sure how to feel about my

every day I am going to keep the promises I made to myself. that clear dark blue like azure and the visions I've had, I won't let the person in my mind be let down.

in a hazy dream I saw the sun setting and a little comet in the corner of my eye a far off wish- everybody I love to be tucked under the blanket of earth eager to rise in the morning, see themselves in clovers and fresh dew content with what they see when…

I have been working on a new painting, and testing glazes for my sculpture. both of these things are reminding me of the importance of practice and experimentation. the painting is much more of a drawing- oil as a base on top of dark blue paper, with past…