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the other day, i was watching a video essay on the dangers of too much self-awareness. some things the vid pointed out: self-awareness can lead to over-researching in favor of actually doing the thing being researched self-aware people don’t live enough b…

i've been doing and getting into new things lately. mostly quality of life stuff, and most don't really matter in the grand scheme of things, but they are new to me, so i thought it would be fun to list them down. i got into perfumes. well, if you can call

this is how i've been using youtube the past few months. i allow the algorithm to happen to me. i scroll through my youtube homepage and look at thumbnails and titles, mostly clickbait, sometimes an obscure music compilation with less than 1,000 views. wh…

for the longest time, i'd convinced myself that i didn't "need" friends. not necessarily in the misanthrope sense, i guess, but more like, i didn't want to place too much importance in other people. whatever that means. i had friends, and i love and care…

the last time we watched a film on the big screen was sinners from last year, so it seems only fitting that the big-screen-film that followed was this. i know people always talk about how fresh it is when a space film isn't the usual clinical, cold, hi-te…

some people grew up with separated or divorced parents. my parents stuck with each other even though they didn't get along, and that made me someone who grew up wishing their parents would separate or divorce. not to open discourse on nature vs nurture or…

speaking as someone who doesn't like being told what to do, the best way to stop people telling you what to do is to just do the thing before they get to tell you to do it. this is exactly like my years of growing up being told to "eat more" and "eat fast…

i've been trying to not let youtube dictate what i watch recently by making my "own" algorithm. but this isn't a post about that, because as always, i got distracted. instead of doing what i set out to do, as i was browsing youtube earlier, the algorithm…

recently, i've been trying to read more bearblogs, both on the trending and most recent pages. i've come to really enjoy reading them, even if there are occasionally posts i don't agree with. anyway, i've noticed some /now1 posts and pages in the most rec…

not a fan of this topic being my first post for the year, but it feels timely for me right now. when i lost my fully work from home job last year, the one thing i dreaded was potentially having to settle for something i had to leave the house for. during…