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first and foremost, you can listen to my album "Saint Elizabeth" here: https://ellaguro.bandcamp.com/album/saint-elizabeth earlier this year i also did a talk called "What Doth Videogame" at the venue Boshi's Place here in Brooklyn that i worked on concur…

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hello - this post of mine i've been working on for the past few months!

greetings!

hello, friends. today is my 33rd birthday. coincidentally, i have also just finished this big post about the 2010's. plz enjoy. and support me on patreon if you like (and read this post on my patreon here if you don't like orange). i also have a website,…

note: you can also read this post over on my Patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/37840892 Back in late 2014 when gamergate was in full force, there was a lot I or others couldn't predict about what would come out of it.

read #23 here: https://ellaguro.blogspot.com/2019/12/top-25-tracks-of-2010s-23-angel-olsen.html if you don't like orange, you can also read this piece on my patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/32941504 #22: Dragging an Ox through Water - Sparrow C…

read #24 here: http://ellaguro.blogspot.com/2019/12/top-25-tracks-of-2010s-24-vessel-paplu.html if you don't like orange, you can also read this piece on my patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/32559481 #23: Angel Olsen - Lark this is probably not…

read #25 here: https://ellaguro.blogspot.com/2019/12/top-25-tracks-of-2010s-25-kanye-west.html if you don't like orange, you can also read this piece on my patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/32500345 #24: Vessel - Paplu (Love That Moves The Sun)…

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note: if you don't like orange (what's wrong with you?)

It shouldn't be too crazy to say that videogames have a lot of problems right now.

i wish i could say the recent revelations of (now ex-)Polygon video producer Nick Robinson sexually harassing several women over an extended period of time was any surprise or event where i'd be hopeful for any kind of productive dialogue to happen in the…

(obvious spoiler warning) i didn't want to write about The Beginner's Guide, at least not publicly. while i don't know its creator Davey Wreden extremely well, i have talked to him a bit over the past several years about various life things and generally…

1. i don't care about Undertale. i don't like talking about things just because they're popular. 2. i have accepted that most people don't know, care, or understand how much effort or thought i put into my work. i have accepted my obscurity as an inevitab…

i didn't want to talk about this in a public setting because part of me wanted to protect the people involved. i was trying to pretend it didn't really happen like i thought it did - that everything was okay, and that i could deal with it. that it was my…

i tweeted this out about a week ago, but basically: after this next month's QGCon and Indiecade (where i'll be doing a talk with David Kanaga about art and politics), i'll be leaving games. this has been a long time coming, and something i need to do for…

this is a comment someone wrote in response to this recent article about gamers vs.

note: this is an edited/updated version of a talk i gave at Indiecade East in 2015 i have to admit that lately i kind of dread the prospect of speaking at videogame conferences. the events we gather in and the communities we work in, no matter how much we…

The house Notch just bought for seventy million dollars It's that time of year again, when I scramble to follow the tacit assumption that I need to sum up my work of the past year.

"we need more comprehensive game criticism" is something i remember seeing a lot of people say on the twittersphere a couple years ago, partly in response to me writing some of my Wolfenstein 3D level design posts. mostly this call seemed to come from dud…

(this is a heavily revised version of a talk given in the "Influences" session at Indiecade 2014. spoiler alert for the plot of Videodrome) there's a tendency that i keep sensing popping its head up indie games that i call the "boy genius syndrome". it's…

(this is, in part, a continuation of my "on right-wing videogame extremism" post from a couple weeks ago) when i was in sixth grade, shortly after the Columbine shooting happened, i remember having a strange conversation with my mom. after seeing a report…

exhausted by hearing reports from people i'm acquaintances with of being harassed, their accounts hacked, personal info spread, phone numbers called, front doors showed up at (in one case) by random MRAs (Men's Rights Activists), 4channers, Redditors or w…

so i'll be better about this - i'm trying to work on an album this and next month. i have this idea i want my voice to sound like (namely a lot better/stronger than my own), but i might just have to accept what i have in the short term... at least until i…